Ticks, triggers & events
These are just some quick notes from conversations we have had throughout the last two days and things I need to remember to bring up to her DR.
She saw a neurologist today, at the volunteer clinic. He is the first dr to do a physical exam, watched her walk, checked her reflexes. And asked about specifics regarding the head traumas and car accident before the mental hospital.
I also read in the chat from another author here on SS, an account from a reader regarding the overhype of modern treatments or therapies that do not yet have much clinical study. One such account reminded me of a time when Divina was experimenting with the occult via an Instagram influencer. She purchased her mirror work program. She began using a pendulum to make decisions. And her husband was experimenting with different microdosing mediums. When they moved into their own place, he felt the freedom to give her whatever he was popping at the time, and she didn’t feel the need to refuse. So these all led to this predicament.
I do not know exactly what he fed her, but I can guess, LSD because I saw the results of a couple of the trips, maybe mushrooms too, but I really am illiterate to the terminology of drug culture. I never ever took an illicit drug. Well, besides an occasional pina colada at a restaurant. So what she took is locked away inside the pandora labyrinth with the guardians holding it and her hostage.
I know that coward of a young man is in as much danger as he put my beautiful daughter through, and we do not have a clue if he is alive or dead. It’s probably better this way, Divina with me daily and him just gone.
Possible food triggers and changes
Processed pastries
Ice cream
Taco Bell
She switched out the mt dew and sprite for sweet tea🧋
Involuntary movements
Rubbing legs and hands
If laying down Legs rocking
If sitting up, upper body rocking
Pulling the sleeve until her arm is inside the body of the blouse.
Identity Notes
We noted that shade identifies as a person who does not like medication and is allowed to keep that part of her old identity
2nd day she has said “Shade is possessed” speaking of herself in 3rd person
We noted that shade use to eat slowly and deliberately enjoy her food 🍱 so as to taste it, we asked why she is allowed to keep some parts of her former identity and not others? eg: the not wanting meds is okay, but the eating healthy like before is not.
I asked the pósese if they had an identity and what would happen to it if the host didn’t care for her body, as in “returning to dust” what would results be for the pósese. Shades countenance became very concerned.
I asked if the guardian was insecure about our conversation. It was
I asked what would happen to the guardians if shade’s body no longer existed? Response-they would make a home elsewhere, but nothing specific.
She will be punished internally for this conversation. I do not know how why when or where. I do not want her to suffer to understand better how the guardians have her entangled, so I stopped asking questions
Appointments
FMLA was turned into work because the quantity of time to leave work for appointments has grown exponentially.
Aug 20th Primary care recheck
Aug 22 recertification for volunteer medicine clinic
Aug 22 psychology LPRN visit and nurse assessment
Aug 22 Invega injection
Aug 23 Brain Center initial visit referrals for EEG & MRI
Today Aug 28 Neurologist at VIM more test referrals
Dental cleaning @ VIM
Next week EEG
New therapist
Lawyer consult for Guardianship
That’s enough for 2 weeks. It will ease up between shot appointments. she will feel better, be more connected and want to meet some new chap… I will divert and distract regarding the whichever young man who has not yet passed the 30 day chat requirement.
She has tried to reconnect with people she spoke to a couple months ago but left off talking too. So I need a way to combat that technique in the future soon, possibly. We managed to get out of that conversation today. IN fact it’s what led to the other conversations and this note.
She admitted today that she is not responsible for chatting, it is not her. It is a guardian that is doing the chatting. That is why she feels no need to be responsible for her whereabouts when she takes off. It’s not her provoking the escape.
As I finish writing this, she has put spiritual Christian music on to “wash away” the consequences of our conversation with the pósese guardian. She sits rocking on the bed, back to the TV, no interest in it at all, humming a hymnal for some peace. 🕊️ Lord I hope it brings her some.
I do know when I am in her presence she does not chat on her phone, she is with me, even now as I write this in front of her. She is still the little toddler grown into an adult woman who wants to hold onto my legs while I do my tasks around the house. She simply wants to be with mommy.
I will take it as a victory! ✌️
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LaLa